I'm hoping you know this. But then, you might not.
Years ago, I used to read a lot of scrapbooking blogs. Or at least, the blogs of women who scrapbook. I always loved reading a little about their lives and then seeing how they would translate that onto a page. Then, as time went on, it seemed like all my favorite blogs went, commercial. To the point that over time, they stopped talking about their lives so much and started talking more about, stuff. Slowly, as that happened, I stopped reading those blogs.
There are a lot of scrapbookers out there whom I find incredibly inspiring, and while I still love to see their pages, I suppose I'd rather just look at them in a gallery or in a magazine... well, not so much magazines anymore. I hardly feel like I need to read their blogs because reading them is just like reading an advertisement. And more and more, everything just seems like a big commercial. Sometimes, it is just nearly impossible to avoid. You go to your favorite scrapbooker's blog and you feel like they aren't trying to just inspire you, but they're trying to sell you something too. Telling you how much they love this, and LOVE that. And how this latest collection is their absolute favorite... even though the last collection only came out three months ago. I honestly just find it all too much. I'm guessing some of you do too.
It's been bothering me because it is something I was afraid would happen here. Not that I could ever monetize this blog. That has never been, and is not one of my goals for blogging. But I was afraid that being on a manufacturer's design team might have that effect on me, and this space. Because part of my job working for Simple Stories and Pebbles is to provide some measure of advertisement for them. But I don't want for my blog to become one big advertisement. I also never want for you to feel like I am gushing about a product because I have to.
I suppose what I ultimately want to feel is a connection. I want to be connected to my readers, and I want you to feel connected to me. Even if only in the very simple way that we can be. I want for it to not be about stuff, but about life. The blogs I still read and visit and comment on are the ones where I have built a relationship with the person writing. Sometimes even outside of their blogs. I want to have that here, and I do. I don't want to lose that. So...
I know I have not been writing much about our lives here. It has been all scrapbooking, scrapbooking, scrapbooking. I can only be honest with you and say that life for the past year or more has been a little out of balance. Particularly the last four months or so. More and more it seems that this out-of-balance-ness is the new balance, and I need to learn to live with all of the new responsibilities being thrown my way. Both Glen and I are being pulled in a million different directions, but we are both determined to keep our focus on God, each other, and on our children. In deciding to homeschool I have taken on a great responsibility, and I feel the weight of its importance. It is not something that can be compromised.
So, what am I getting at here? I suppose I'm asking you to be patient with me. And I'm asking you to trust me too. I have, in the three years or so that I have been blogging, gone through many phases. Sometimes I post often, sometimes not as much. Right now when I blog, it is just easier to share my pages and cards with you. Because even when life is crazy, I still like to make beautiful things.
I suppose I'm also trying to tell you that yeah, from time to time, I'm going to feature products here. And yeah, I got that stuff for free. Maybe you think that will bias me, but I'm promising you now that I will never say that I love something unless I actually love it. Unless it truly inspires me, and unless I think it will inspire you too.
Reading all this you might wonder why I chose to post this now. Well, I've got to get back to blogging somewhere, somehow. And this has been on my mind for months. I just wanted to get it out there. Also, I have lots of news to share with you, and pretty soon, this blog is going to seem like one big commercial... I say this a bit tongue-in-cheek, but I hope you'll forgive me. =)
Thanks for sticking with me, and I'll see you again soon...