"For Christians, the beginning of the day should not be burdened and haunted by various kinds of concerns that they face during the day. The Lord stands above the new day, for God has made it. All restlessness, all impurity, all worry and anxiety flee before him. Therefore, in the early morning hours of the day, may our many thoughts and our many idle words be silent and may the first word and the first thought belong to the one to whom our whole life belongs. " ~Dietrich Bonhoeffer
And so, I've been trying, note trying to look to the day with less fear and more hope. I've also been turning to prayer a lot in those difficult moments. Gabe and Nathan definitely notice that daddy has not been at home. He is the one who does bath time and bedtime and let me tell you, I do not do it right! It's as if they tolerate my bath time and bedtime procedures, but they just don't make the grade. Nothing compares to having daddy at home.
But the situation is temporary (they are working on a closely approaching deadline). I just had my first sip of coffee. Nathan is drinking his milk watching Curious George. Gabe is still asleep (those middle-of-the-night potty breaks really wear him out - lol!). Saying some very simple prayers and knowing that the day will turn out fine - even if I am tired and I'd rather be eating breakfast with my husband than without him.